To my baby

My precious baby, you are one day old today, what a special day for you. I hope and pray someone makes a fuss over you today, how I wish it could be me! I wish I could have woken you with the birthday song, and loved and cuddled you. I wish I could give you your first taste of chocolate today. I wish you were here to go swing on the swings, to open your presents, to play with you sister. We are having a wiggles cake in your honor, how I wish you could see it! I wish I could teach you to blow out your candle, that I could capture on film you demolishing your piece of cake. I wish you were surrounded by your grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins. They are so looking forward to meeting you. Your sister is having a hard time today; she doesn’t understand why China won’t let you come home for your party. She wants you here to blow out your candles, she worries over whether you will have candles in “the big house” J She wants to know what presents you will get, it upset her so much to here you might not have any that I didn’t tell her that a second time.
Today I find myself crying each time I think of you. I had so thought you would be in my arms by now. I find my arms aching for the feel of you, my throat aches to sing you lullabies. Please know I will be there as soon as I can. Until then I pray, that someone is holding you and singing to you. I love you so.

Mama