Happy Happy Birthday Baby Bug!

Happy Happy Birthday Baby Bug! The day Baby Bug has been waiting for is here. She is so excited. I woke her by singing Happy Birthday; she woke up with a grin. She wanted so much to wear a dress, so she could look like a princess. I let her wear a new dress and she was so excited! She couldn’t wait to show it off to her Grandma and Papa. When we got to my parents there was a sign on the door that said Happy Birthday Baby Bug! She was jumping up and down with happiness. Wouldn’t it be great if we could all enjoy such simple things so much? I have to work today, but I will be off by early afternoon. We will be having presents and cake tonight. 4 years old seems so grown up.

To my baby

My precious baby, you are one day old today, what a special day for you. I hope and pray someone makes a fuss over you today, how I wish it could be me! I wish I could have woken you with the birthday song, and loved and cuddled you. I wish I could give you your first taste of chocolate today. I wish you were here to go swing on the swings, to open your presents, to play with you sister. We are having a wiggles cake in your honor, how I wish you could see it! I wish I could teach you to blow out your candle, that I could capture on film you demolishing your piece of cake. I wish you were surrounded by your grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins. They are so looking forward to meeting you. Your sister is having a hard time today; she doesn’t understand why China won’t let you come home for your party. She wants you here to blow out your candles, she worries over whether you will have candles in “the big house” J She wants to know what presents you will get, it upset her so much to here you might not have any that I didn’t tell her that a second time.
Today I find myself crying each time I think of you. I had so thought you would be in my arms by now. I find my arms aching for the feel of you, my throat aches to sing you lullabies. Please know I will be there as soon as I can. Until then I pray, that someone is holding you and singing to you. I love you so.

Mama

Food Poisoning?

I went to a conference with my work early in the week. It was held out of state in a hotel. The food of course was all catered by the hotel. YUK! it was gross. I am not a picky eater, so if I say its gross, its bad. I thought it just tasted bad, but on the way home I got sick. Dad who was traveling with me got sick the next morning, and the company that hosted the conference told us that quite a few of the other attendees came down sick as well. :-(